Heart so heavy

Still keeping thoughts to myself
Not letting them out
Scared that my thoughts will hurt my children

Oh my heart

Sorry for the ache
Heart so broken
Still keeping the broken pieces to myself
Not throwing them away
Thinking others might bleed from it

Oh my heart

Sorry for the pain
Heart so alone
Still missing the ones
Who had my back
Not letting them out of my mind
Scared to be alone in this scary world

Oh my heart

Sorry for the loneliness
Heart so angry
Still keeping the ballistic feeling
Unable to show them to anyone
As Allah loves who suppresses them

Oh my heart

Sorry for the agony
Waiting for the peace, love and unity
To enter my family in abundance
Oh my Rabb
I can’t wait for that day.